Alhamdulillah since attending the Khanqah, Jamaat Salaah has become an aim for me but I get very confused sometimes. I am always late because I struggle with Wudhu etc.
Generally I try my best to make it even before Salaam and also sometimes get worked up trying to make it but if it happens that I miss Salaah tha I read Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilayhi Rajioon and make Istigfaar and know it was Allah Ta’ala’s will. Sometimes in my weakness I will become despondent but Allah Ta’ala calms me finally.
When we out with work or family and its Salaah time I show a lot of urgency to try and make it. Alhamdulillah and my family sometimes get upset and think I am performing. They tell me to be calm and we doing our best (and I really feel that I am calm, I am just pointing out that we have to get to the Masjid at this time before doing other things or we won’t make it. If I don’t do this, I feel we will become very negligent).
Am I right in sometimes getting edgy and worked up because I feel we not showing urgency for Salaah and I know we can only go with Allah Ta’ala’s Mercy to the Masjid but if we don’t make effort on our part or we making effort but in such a relaxed way that we miss Salaah than that’s not right either
Try your best to plan yourself in such a way that you don't have to rush or to rush anyone else. Where latitude has been given, like on safr, use the latitude. Be hard on yourself, but not on others.